The Introduction

I'm pretty boring to be honest, lol.
I like my own company due to a fairly lonely childhood (please no pity, I enjoy the peace) and most of my socialising - for want of a better word - is online.

I play a few Trading Card Games and speak to a lot of people on the messageboards through that and have actually made some friends.
Most of my online friends I met through liking bands such as Reel and Westlife, and have met a fair few in going to concerts together and the ever-entertaining world of stalking... sorry... meeting our favourite bands.

On the odd occasions that I venture out of the house aside from work (in a dismally boring office where the work is dreadful and only a handful of co-workers actually slightly more bearable) I like to travel, either to concerts or just to meet up with friends and have a good old drink.

I never really let myself get too drunk these days after a hefty lesson learned after necking a bottle of Archers peach schnapps straight on a nearly empty stomach in October '05 (and also a rather embarrassing New Year '08 where I don't even remember seeing January 1st) so I often seem boring. But my sense of humour tends to shine through more when I'm with friends, or people I'm comfortable with... or I daresay, when I'm pissed as a fart.

I have a tendency to rebuff all new ideas and changes to the point of dismissing them entirely... until one day I decide to give it a try and subsequently end up being completely obsessed with whatever I had previously been trying to avoid. Even the internet - I kid you not - was one example of this. Harry Potter, was another.

I'm a BIG Westlife fan {in love for the band and also physical size}.
I like to sing but only ever sing in public at karaoke when I'm suitably pissed when no one cares if you're good or not.
I like to pretend to people that I'm bubbly and funny all the time, but mostly I'm sarcastic and just want to curl up in bed and go to sleep.
I'm single and at this moment hating it, but usually like not being attached.

I have a soft spot for the TV show; Charmed. Leo is hot. And in fact was featuring in a dream I had last night [25/6/06] where I was for some reason on the roof of a moving train and when I got inside told him there was a leak in the toilet... like he could heal the pipe. Anyway. I also love Supernatural (Winchesters FTW! Random fact, the city I was born in was Winchester! Yes!) and The Amazing Race. I wish I was American so I can go on this show and meet Phil Keoghan.

Well, I'm a big fat chump.
I like to go to the pub and drink cocktails. I have a new thing for Blackcurrant Sourz spritzers, they're rather ace. I like going to concerts because a) I get to see my idols b) I get to drink with friends and have a good laugh while travelling to different cities c) it's a great stress reliever. Got a problem or feeling frustrated? Just SCREEEAAAAMMMM!! LOL.

I'm overweight. Scratch that, my Wii Fit tells me I'm obese. Which I knew before, I just didn't want to admit it. I'm 4 and a half stones overweight (say around 55-60lbs). I'm trying to lose it I really am. I'll do it this year too, 2009 is when it all changes. (torchwood reference - GeekLOL)

I'm a bit of a dork really, playing online Trading Card Games. But it's something to do of an evening.

I'm often too honest for my own good and at times it has gotten me into trouble. I don't do it to piss people off, I just don't like talking behind people's backs - I try not to say anything about anyone I wouldn't say to their face. I think the world is a better place when people know where they stand.

Sometimes if I point out a mistake that someone has made, I tell them that I do it all the time, to alleviate their embarrassment, even if I have never made the gaffe in my life. I like to keep the peace and often this helps. It's part of my comforting nature I suppose.

Sadly that means that I am rather susceptible to bouts of random crying (when alone mostly) and feeling worthless. Many a day has gone by when I've contemplated my worth and indeed, my entire point of being. But I'm sure I'm not the only person to have had such thoughts.

I am a terrible friend, at times. I have a mild fear of the telephone and I feel that some friends think that I am being rude when I don't call them, especially if they have been off work sick. It's not that I don't care - on the contrary, I often sympathise with people so much that I take on symptoms myself - it's just that either I get nervous on the phone or can't think of anything interesting to say, and on certain occasions calling certain friends I get the distinct feeling they haven't listened to a word I say - yet if I don't call it's that exact same person who feels put out. Some people.

I don't let people in very easily. I'm always scared that if I admit to having a problem or weakness they'll use it against me. Or worse, leave me. I think that's why I don't mind my own company so much, I have to in case I'm ever left alone.

If there's anything else about me that you would like to know... should you have reached this far, I have no problem in you contacting me. Of course, I had meant for these thoughts to be private... but one can't expect to be alone in this world forever.